I cried while smiling :')

           I had one of those days. You know pissed at everyone, kind of days. But really it didn't start until like 3pm after school. I put my biggest smile on because I felt hurt. And, thats what I do. 

So, I honestly felt like... dying? That word almost isn't right; but, close. I felt ugly, fat,  mean, and all the things no one wants to be. I hate that feeling. I hat myself everything I get like that. I feel like I'm faking something off. Like I cant be 100% thinking at the moment. Idk. BUt, whatever.

But, I don't wanna go all sobs.  Right?


I looked through a book of poems I started writing early 8th grade. I was looking for a blank page. I spilled my thoughts in poetry, than I flipped the page, and just like that, I gave almost a real smile. It felt good the poem said:

If you hate your life & everything in it,

Don't give up, try to win it.

If you want a story you live to end,

Love yourself, open a new one, write it & send

I helped myself. When I wrote this I probably was going through some crap, and it helped me in the long run. :) Try to find your passion. ;* 

TOP THINGS THAT RUINED MY DAY :)

1. Girls taking a nice guy for granted
2. Loving someone that has been taken for granted
3. Liking someone that is taking you for granted
4. Lv e (It doesn't deserve to be spelt right)
5. Confusion on who I really like
6. Why my mom can't seem to trust me
7. Why I can't seem to be loved
8. Why I'm fat, ugly and annoying
9. How a girl 10x more annoying than me can do whatever she wants & still have 9 guys on her back up list
10. Why I can't find Asia (myself)

TEENAGE YEARS D-:

Well at least you #Sweekers (Sweet Whatever members) Love me...

Right?